June 25th, 2014

Relationships are so damn hard.
No matter how much you might love a person, they don't always love you back as much as you would want them to. "I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once", but did he...? 

I have so many thoughts running through my mind, but the one person I want to share them with is the one person they're about. So I guess this is why I started writing. To just let it out. But I still feel like I need some advise or someone to tell me what they think, for me to get some perspective about things.
I know heart ace is a temporary thing. That does not mean it doesn't hurt like hell when you're in the moment when it does.
I've been through some strange, weird, sweet, exciting and wonderful relationships in my life so far and with this one I though things were going to be different. In an 'Evernote' post on the 18th of June I wrote "You're it for me" and genuinely meant it. Thank God I never said any of the things I was planning to say to you before I left your house before the big move. Because they never are different.. are they...?
I'll talk to you soon
-K

June 22nd, 2014

So this originally was supposed to be posted on May 14th, 2014, but it was just a blank... What an exciting life I lead...

I hate this.
Not being able to plan anything, not knowing what I'm going to be doing, where I'm going to live and what I'm going to be doing...
I just want some stability. Is that so much to ask for?....
It'd be helpful to have someone to talk to about this. But have you ever felt alone in a crowd of people, cause that's exactly how I feel all the time.
I'll talk to you soon
-K