February 27th, 2015

Tonight I'm having the best night I have been in months!

Pancakes, a load of sweets, alcohol mixed in with a bath in an empty house all to myself. Have a very busy weekend ahead of me so gonna enjoy every second of this. 

It's true what they say, it does get better, but you have to make it get better or at least start believing in yourself. I'm sure I'll listen to myself soon and start doing that.

I don't like living on my own but I love nights like this where I can just let loose. 

I think my life goal from now on will be to find a person that is not going to find it weird walking in on a person sitting down on a bathroom floor typing out a blog while talking a break from drinking in an amazing bath while watching the 87th annual Oscar awards.

I'll talk to you soon.

-K 

February 12th, 2015

It's hard to be okay on your own. It's a thing I'm trying to get used to but it hasn't been going too well so far. Seeing as it's 'fat Thursday' today I let myself eat way too much sweet things. That's always a good way of making myself feel better. Maybe not too good in the long run but I can always loose those calories later.
It's a strange thing to get used to. Always having someone around and now, no one.
Though I'm hopeful of what I'm capable of and what I can make for myself.

I'll talk to you soon
-K

February 4th, 2015

There is just no damn words to describe this. The closes I can get is:

"I've been trying to find some kind of balance. Right thing for my family, club. And every time I think maybe I'm heading in the right direction I end up in a place I never even knew could feel this bad."

Just like damn dominos. One thing falls after another. 

I'll talk to you soon.