November 20th, 2015

It has taken me quite a  long time but finally I see what I've been missing.
I've been taking all of this 'life' stuff way too seriously.
Looking back through the old pictures of myself showed me that the bad days passed and only the memory of the good ones stuck. No matter how bad the day was, no matter what I was feeling, that's past now and I'm happy. Never thought I'd be able to get past all of the S**t I went through but now I'm coming out the other end which I never even thought existed.
It's nice to be hopeful for the future which has been a foreign concept to me so far.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K

November 5th, 2015

On the 3rd of February 2007 I had a big brown leather journal that I started on my 1st year of secondary school. And on that day I wrote:
"If everything happens for a reason that means there is a reason for me to be here in Ireland without any talent, any idea what am I doing here"
I was such a stupid kid! Reading these poages while I rip them out to burn later is just tragic.
Almost every page is filled with me talking about guys, broken hearts and their needs. What about me damn it?!  So done with this whole shebang. pathetic.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K

November 1st, 2015

Being a hopeless romantic may be a beautiful feeling when you're actually in love, though it does not help your love life. Watching romantic scenes in t.v. shows and movies feeling the feelings they are feeling staring into each others eyes knowing their love is forever.
But wanting to be single without the ability to stay single but wanting to be in love is quite the tall order. I know I'm overthinking it and I do just have to just leave it to fate but it's till quite annoying not being able to do anything to change it.
Feeling someone elses love in every fiber of your being is never fun
I'll talk to you soon.
-K