February 16th, 2016

This part of my life is the most annoying one, and it came out of nowhere.
One day 3 year ago I has fine and the next I was having a panic attack while sitting on the floor and smashing my head against the wall.
Now every time I think I have things under control something happens to prove me wrong.
This time it was crying histerically at a mini tart instructional video. I have not cried for a whole year and then I start crying at such stupid things... It's ridiculous!
Maybe some day I'll be okay.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K

February 1st, 2016

Happy New Year.
I've been badly slacking on my new year tasks, but ah well too busy with life.

You can't keep clinging onto the memories of your past. Some point we have to let go, I was afraid of that, but I'm starting to be okay with it.
It's been too long to think that things are going to change. Even if they did, dragging a fresh start through the old times would be a waste of every bodies time. If you wanna do it again then do it, but don't rehash the past. They call it the past for a reason and it's to stay there.

I at least should be proud of what I've achieved. The amount of stuff that I went through, most of them that I did to myself and to still come out on the other side. It is really something to be proud of. I just need to hold on to it from now on.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K