I do remember feeling like this before and I know it's a part of my life but this is not who I am as a whole.
I need to get out of this rump because life is as good as it can be but the years of struggling are getting to be so much that I really can't cope with it anymore. I'm tired of putting on a smile and carrying on as if the problems are not a big deal, as if its all gonna pass eventually.
It is not passing, it is not going away no matter what I do. I can't live like this anymore, I don't think my mind can take much more... and I have been staying that for way too long now.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K