May 27th-28th 2024

So I drove myself to the lowest part of the country. Always wanted to do it but just been waiting on someone else. I've apparently done that with a lot of things in my life and somehow wasted years of it instead of just doing it because I want to. 

No one ever cared/cares about how much of my time they've wasted, but they wouldn't even realise as there is just so little care for my well being by other people. 

I always said I need a me in my life! someone that will go above and beyond for me and not need anything in return. 

Well I guess I'm going to be growing a me for myself so I can be there for me like I needed everyone throughout my life to be there. 

I'll talk to you soon.

-K

May 18th 2024 till unknown

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

Not even close,

Not even a little bit,

Not even at all

May 17th till unknown

I hate this.

I hate every second I'm awake feeling like my heart is getting ripped out of my chest over and over again. I hate how numb I'm getting... Only functioningbas half a person, as you're the other half of me.

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you don't let me drive your car I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb boot's, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right,

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around,

And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

Not even close,

Not even a little bit,

Not even at all

May 16th till unknown

I hate this.

Hate every night that I don't get to feel you near me. Hate every second I'm awake feeling like my heart is getting ripped out of my chest over and over again when I remember what I'm trying so hard to forget...

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you don't let me drive your car I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb boot's, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right,

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around,

And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

Not even close,

Not even a little bit,

Not even at all

May 6th till unknown

I hate this.

Hate every morning without a coffee served and a kiss goodbye with a "love you have a good day"...

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you don't let me drive your car I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb boot's, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right,

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around,

And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

Not even close,

Not even a little bit,

Not even at all