Well this is officially the strangest thing that has ever happened.
I have not one voice in my head screaming at me right now but 6. Don't know how but I do.
It came out of nowhere. I'm lying in bed right now and it's making me feel a bit sick.
I guess it must be a panic attack but on steroids. Though I'm sitting here calmly it feels like I'm not in control of myself, of it all my mind and body. It's taking so much effort right now to sit still while having these weird twitches that feel like are not made by me.
I'm officially gone off the walls and I'm really scaring myself. I'm really quickly becoming a complete stranger to myself.
I said "if it wasn't for him I'd be a goner" and I really meant it. But now everything has changed. I really want to hate him but I'm way to deep in love with him for that. I just mainly hate myself for trusting him so much and letting myself fall so deeply for him, when really I was just some pass time for him.
I'll talk to you soon.
-K
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