"Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain."
31/12/2015
This is very true. But finding the joy, well that is a b***h of a hard task.
April 24th, 16.
This feels pretty strange.
I never could just be. I always analise my every move and every word said but now I'm just me. No hesitation, no double guessing and best of all no anxiety after words about what was going on during the day.
It's nice to cut out that constant stress out of my life.
I found this quote over a year ago and only now has it been possible to do. I struggled with this for years and it feels so strange for it to be so true and right and for my life to be just normal for once without constant stress around.
Walking down the hill from my house on the way to work feeling so good that my feet are unintentionally making me skip. Even the little things as feeling and looking good and not being apologetic about it.
I do feel as if I'm to feel bad for being so happy and content but what's the point?! I could be dead tomorrow! So I will not feel sorry. I will not apologise for finally coming out of depression and slowly taking control of my anxiety. It has been YEARS of crying myself to sleep, taking prescription tablets to calm me down, hiding myself so the world doesn't see me go by, hurting myself in more ways than one and never feeling like I deserve anything better.
It's about time I stop this pointless game because there is joy in life and you just have to go find it. And when you do, hold onto it with all you mite and never let it go!
I'll talk to you soon.
-K
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