I guess I haven't been writing because I just got busy with life. Things started happening in my life and it got so good and I've been so happy as to not need to nor have the time to write... but clearly it stops now.
It's really hard to think about the situation I'm in. So much older, but still have the same feelings wash over me that I have either buried or worked through over and over again for years. Clearly it has not finished with me yet as much as I'm done with it.
That horrible feeling of my skin being on fire or my head feeling like it's about to implode or even were I go so numb that my nails burying into my arms and chest is the only way I can feel.
I guess I'm okay.
It's just frustrating dealing with this over and over again. It's been 6 years since I wrote my first blog on here and it's been 6 years since my panic attacks, anxiety and depression have started. I've been on the other side feeling better after counselling so many time over the years. Why?!... why does this still happen?!
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