Recently life's been a roller coaster. And I didn't really want to write about the things that have been happening. But I actually had a good day today... till it went shit as usual.
Bruises, cuts, hurt bones, self made headaches (from hitting it off the wall) and smacked doors are only a few things that I've been doing recently.
My plan was to write nice things on here to only keep the good memories and move on from the bad.
It's about time I stop lying to myself.
It's going to get better but I have to make it happen. I'm not going to be able to be nice about this and spare peoples feelings. Why should I do it if no one ever does that for me....
I don't know what's the first step to getting my life in order but I know I can't take lying to everyone anymore. All those fake smiles and saying "ya I'm fine. Everything's good".
I have some random diary entries lying around. I might post them here... maybe not, we'll see. They're a bit raw, unedited bunch of feelings on a page. It could go both ways, very well or horribly bad.
I’ll talk to you soon.
-K
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